It was four years ago that baby polar bear Knut was the most famous baby on the planet. We went to Berlin then and took the very first steps on our TTC journey. That very first two week wait was filled with dreams and talk of our own little knut. So small and white, so fluffy, so adorable.
It came as a shock that Knut is no more.
It made me realise that our innocent dreams are gone as well. That sweet romantic dream of going on a holiday and falling pregnant, that special fairy tale to tell your child of its conception... all gone.
The year of TTC at home. The year of diagnosis, miscarriage and ART treatment. The hope of a baby that would look just like me... past without a trace. How could it be 4 years?
While searching youtube for news of Knut I also discovered that his keeper had died before him, at the age of 44. So sad.
Farewell gentle zoo keeper
Farewell Knut
Farewell innocent dreams.
I'll miss you.
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I had read about that story, really sad. But you have a future, so it's not really the same. Love, Fran
ReplyDeleteSuch bittersweetness in this post...sending you lots of love and hope for your new lovely dream...
ReplyDeleteLove,
Maddy
POF as a diagnosis really does feel like a bit of a death. Now you have a new dream and a new special story to tell.
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