I think it is worse than that. Plus that sponsor sounds way too much like Clomid.
Am I being overly sensitive or is this just really bad taste? (for all of you not working/living in a male
dominated environment)
Friday, October 24, 2014
Working in IT
I work in the IT department of a telecom, one of the main projects is getting the 4G project up and running. Today the Friday afternoon drinks were advertised like this:
DP thinks it is kinda lame.
I think it is worse than that. Plus that sponsor sounds way too much like Clomid.
Am I being overly sensitive or is this just really bad taste? (for all of you not working/living in a male
dominated environment)
I think it is worse than that. Plus that sponsor sounds way too much like Clomid.
Am I being overly sensitive or is this just really bad taste? (for all of you not working/living in a male
dominated environment)
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
#Tiny Tuesday
Still on Activelle, now the second box of 28 pills. Soon I'll have to meet with my GP and think of ways to decide if it is working for me.
I think I have less brain fog, and feel more like my former self. You know, the one that is seeing a therapist for light depression.
I think I have less brain fog, and feel more like my former self. You know, the one that is seeing a therapist for light depression.
Monday, October 13, 2014
#MiniMonday Missing boss
Today at work I was told our hipster boss wouldn't be coming in today. He had some appointments to take care of his psychological problems.
Which I find odly ironic.
(it would help to explain his disproportionate reaction to my request last week)
(it would also surprise me if he can take care of it in just a day)
Which I find odly ironic.
(it would help to explain his disproportionate reaction to my request last week)
(it would also surprise me if he can take care of it in just a day)
Thursday, October 9, 2014
Frustration
Deeep Sigh.
Today I moved back to my old desk, leaving behind my spot at the project.
I loved working in that international team. Consultants from Macedonia and India, some Dutch consultants too (among whom Lily's husband, smart guy, talks too much)
Project finished, deadline made successfully, aftercare hardly necessary)
It was so discouraging to see how my old team was struggling even more now. The backlog is huge.
It was time to speak with my boss. I really didn't want to, but putting it off even further would only prolong the misery of trying to ignore his judgement.
I have discussed it with BambiEyes for three weeks now. I will have to accept that in the team and with this hipster-boss it doesn't really matter if I'm really good at my work, it just matters what people's perception is. It´s more about the process than just the result.
And I can´t come to grips with it. My internal voice keeps screaming that content should always be more important than form.I'm so allergic to this big corporation bs about "attitude". DP did explain to me that attitude will always limit the performance score. And that it is hard to measure.
Out of the 12 points of my review I tried to discuss a single one. ONE. (The Agile way of working one) We spoke for about an hour and I still have only a faint idea.
The more I think about it the more attractive the freelance consulting becomes again.
And then he wanted to know why I book 'short medical leave' to leave early on Thursday.
I didn't answer, I just said that I have a recurring medical appointment. Said that I wanted a shorter contract so I could do it in my own time, but they didn't allow that.
But apparently he (or HR) needs more of a reason.
When I asked DP he said that the company is supposed to know what I do or where I am, I'm convinced my medical adventures are private. I don't want to believe the company has a right to know, I find it deeply personal and confidential.
Today I moved back to my old desk, leaving behind my spot at the project.
I loved working in that international team. Consultants from Macedonia and India, some Dutch consultants too (among whom Lily's husband, smart guy, talks too much)
Project finished, deadline made successfully, aftercare hardly necessary)
It was so discouraging to see how my old team was struggling even more now. The backlog is huge.
It was time to speak with my boss. I really didn't want to, but putting it off even further would only prolong the misery of trying to ignore his judgement.
I have discussed it with BambiEyes for three weeks now. I will have to accept that in the team and with this hipster-boss it doesn't really matter if I'm really good at my work, it just matters what people's perception is. It´s more about the process than just the result.
And I can´t come to grips with it. My internal voice keeps screaming that content should always be more important than form.I'm so allergic to this big corporation bs about "attitude". DP did explain to me that attitude will always limit the performance score. And that it is hard to measure.
Out of the 12 points of my review I tried to discuss a single one. ONE. (The Agile way of working one) We spoke for about an hour and I still have only a faint idea.
The more I think about it the more attractive the freelance consulting becomes again.
I didn't answer, I just said that I have a recurring medical appointment. Said that I wanted a shorter contract so I could do it in my own time, but they didn't allow that.
But apparently he (or HR) needs more of a reason.
When I asked DP he said that the company is supposed to know what I do or where I am, I'm convinced my medical adventures are private. I don't want to believe the company has a right to know, I find it deeply personal and confidential.
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